Mood:  hug me
Topic: nothing in particular
UGH today has just been such crap... I:m tired, sick, at least I*finally stopped coffingyesterdaywas cool I goot lots of presents! I tihink I;m just gonna go to sleep now...
Night

Michelle

yooo
Mood:  chatty
Now Playing: nada me ish in english
Topic: nothing in particular
jo, i;m in english yeah yeah i know i haven't posted an entry in like hella days sorrya bout that i;ve been busy with school, and track. speaking of track i don't think imade a formal annoncement on heree i am on the west high pole vaulting team. i feel so speciaal lol.. isnt that funny xD. well lets see, i have a dance to go to tonight so i prolly wont update it again tonight and this sight has been blockeed on my graphics computer in my fourth period. i don't have any new photos to post in my album yet and there is really no other pictures or annoncements to mess wiht other than i switched dead child's toy box to silver Doll's enchanted music box and i have started writing a new horror story called midnight lights. that will be posted on there when i finsih the first chapter. yeah its kinda sad i write so much like i am talking to lost of people even though i know not even one of my friends ever read this. i still think it is fun o write a lot like this. this is possibly the longest post i ever written for this. dunno its like an online diary thats really a diary since no one ever cares to read it anymore. that and its possible i lost the few readers i had since its been about 1-2 months since i last posted. well thats about it for now. oh yeah! my birthday is in less than 1 weeks! i'll be 15!!!!

always,

Silver Doll

awwww shit
Mood:  blue
Now Playing: The Ghost of You~My Chemical Romance
Topic: bleg
aww shit, i feel so sick right now... I think I'm just going to sleep through lunch... man I'll post more when i get home. but yeah. oh yeah ong recommendation! My Chemical Romance, the song's called ghost of you.. its a hell of great song.

Augh...
Mood:  blue
Now Playing: Vermillion Pt. 2 { Slipknot}
Topic: bleg
augh..
I can already tell that this week is going to be beyond shitty everythign just sucks now.. Its soo hellish.. and I really cant stand it. I wrote a note to chris.. explain how much happier and better off he'd be with out me... So I'm writing this now.. Is it better this way probably, do I want to dom this.. hell no, I don't want to lose him... it makes me wanna cry just thinking about it.. But I KNOW he'd be so much better off..

Always...
Michelle aka The BROKEN silver doll

this is short.. I know it is because I only have one minute til class ends... I HATE THIS PLACE!

Mood:  blue
Now Playing: nothing, in english class
Topic: bleg
alright, hey y'all, not like any one actually cares to even read this stuff but yeah. nothing much has been going on, I've just been extremely depressed lately.. I Wish that some how I could just make him smile... instead I just make him sad.. and make him frown.. The look on his face lately has been one to break my heart. I wish that I could change that but the odds are that I can not... you see, I fail every time I try to change that, and the more I fail at it, the more worthless and helpless I feel... I am I failure at everything I do.

The world should just strike me down with lightning and put his pain out of its misery...

thats all for now.

Goodbye...
Michelle..

Winter Ball!
Mood:  special
Now Playing: You Were Meant For Me ~ Jewel
Topic: Special Event!
OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LAST NIGHT WAS AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I had so much fun, I mean, we had a limo, and yeah, the limo had kewl LED lights, I chugged Apple Cider outs of a bottle. I even got chris to dance with me. He slow danced too! lol, The pictures, well some of them are posted in the photo album.
the Night was great even though I slipped and fell on my ass, the resuraunt was fun too, they tried to give us take out lol! Lots of kissing for me too, lol! Hehehehe...

Later!

~Silver Doll

Augh...
Mood:  blue
Now Playing: Only One ~ Yellowcard
Topic: bleg
Okay, here it goes.... rather there it goes... All my confidence and joy out the fucking window. Finals are over... Here's how it stands so far...
Engineering 1:
Part A: 84%
Part B: 95%
Algebra: 89%
English: 85%
Graphics: 95%

Not to good as I see it... Man I feel so inferior to Chris... He's like a genius, while I'm an Artsy Idiot... HE GOT A 100% ON HIS ENGLISH FINAL! HIGHEST IN THE CLASS?! I'M NOTHING COMPARED TO HIM! He deserves someone as smart as him.... I'm just.. ugh...

I don't know anymore....

I just wish that he could have some one as good as he deserves instead of being stuck with me... Man His karma must SUCK to be stuck being attached to me... I just .. suck ass, I'm not cute at all unless I really really try at it, which I never do... I guess.. Silver doll isn't made of good strong plastic...just really thin porcelain...

God I love this song.. Only One... Great streaming media.. My teacher is letting us listen to music through headphones, which I just realized were in my bag... Blaring Only One through Arron's crappy only headphones is helping to calm me down even though... I still feel crappy.. I feel like crying but I know I can't that would just ADD to the heap of patheticness that I am....

I keep typing alot because I just need to tell somebody anybody how I feel... It's been eating away at me.. and I'm beginning to wonder why he loves me, why he puts up with me...

I think I'm going to post the lyrics to Only One:

Mood:  flirty
Now Playing: Eminem- Encore
Topic: nothing in particular
lol.. man it is hella cold.. OMG FINALLY! FINALS ARE OVER!AHAHAHAHAHAH!!!! FREEDOM! OMG OMG OMG! 2 DAYS TIL WINTER BALL!

Toy Box Unlatched
Mood:  don't ask
Now Playing: Non, I'm In Graphics class!
Topic: nothing in particular
Hey hey y'all?
Silver Doll's Blog is now open! Pictures and such to come later, but so far somebody unlatched the toy box. Silver Doll is just an alias, but this blog an photo album are a sister site top Dead Child's Toy box, We're like ying and yang here, Dead Child is a depressing website, while Silver Doll is a happy little website about me and my friends. Who am I? you'll just have to wait to find out!

~Silver Doll